It has been a long while

And too much has happened to put into words tonight. However, hopefully soon I will be able to tell all.

All that I know now is that I can work too hard, try too hard and love too hard. And when all that crumbles, all that is left is a hardened soul.

However, I have two hopes left in my life (maybe three). One is the LORD and another is the only human who has been entirely faithful to me. I hope I don't screw that one up too.

Prayers

I pray for guidance, I also pray for strength. There is no way that I can do this on my own (and now I really know that!). I mess everything up on my own but You... You can fix what I have destroyed, You can build something beautiful out of a catastrophe. You can bring joy out of the worst pain. I have felt pain and anger and sometimes I could not even face the evil that I am, knowing how I could use that pain and anger. Hold me back and let Your Spirit act through me. Please, I need You now as I always have.

Summers Ending...

but here are some pictures to remember it by.

Some Small Joys

Touch me nots. If you've never had the experience of an exploding seed pod, you haven't lived. Heather, my future mother-in-law had never seen these before and was literally jumping back like a little girl.

The lake. Especially at sunset like in this picture. But its good anytime!

Mist on the lake.

Wildflowers. Right now they are so abundant.

Chloe. Yes, I do love her. She's gotten much better.

Allow myself to believe this

oh my child, rest in me.
yes, quietly settle down in my care, as a bird settles in a nest.
for i am watching over you, and in love i will care for you.

there is no danger with which i am unable to cope.
there is no enemy too formidable for me to handle.
i am able to carry out all my purposes,
and to keep you at the same time.

be not afraid;
neither allow terror to strike at your heart.
my power is at your disposal.
my presence stands around you,
and nothing can harm you so long as you are in my care,
and that is forever...

Would you rather...


Lose your good reputation

or

Lose your sense of self-worth?

Best Friends Getting Married!

This weekend, Paul and I went to the most beautiful wedding. Our good friends, Steve and Melissa got married in Rockport, Massachusetts at Halibut Point State Park. It was absolutely gorgeous. The ceremony overlooked the ocean that was just so peaceful and still.
The park had a lighthouse, which you could see from the ceremony site.
There was also an old granite quarry in the middle of the park.
The lighthouse

The beautiful floral arrangements.The wedding party.
Paul and I met the couple freshman year. Actually, if it weren't for Steve, we never would have met each other! During that year Steve and Melissa were not a couple but had dated in highschool. Although they denied it at the time, I knew they were meant for each other. The chemistry was obvious and I could see the joy in each of their eyes whenever they were together. This weekend, I couldn't handle the emotion. When they faced each other, they both started crying and so did everyone else. It was just so beautiful to see a couple's dreams come true and to declare their love to each other in front of their friends and family. I hope and pray that someday Paul and I will have the same opportunity.

Steve and Melissa have a beautiful thing. I just hope they know how lucky they are.